To put it simply, I haven’t felt like myself for a month and I’m finally starting to get myself back.
I won’t dwell on how or why I haven’t felt like me but, rather, what’s been helping me to get to being myself again.
Of course, Matt has helped immensely. He let me have only very temporary pity parties but also made me eat even though my jaw hurt*, go to the farmer’s market and have friends over for dinner when I didn’t feel social, work on my project although it was after bed time, took me to a big box craft store when I wanted to try cross stitch again, and even sat through a Disney cartoon when I was feeling nostalgic.
And then there was crafting. Crafting both makes me feel better and helps me to realize when I’m not feeling like myself. So it helped and didn’t, all at the same time.
I did a little cross stitch.
Also, some knitting for baby Ada. Finished a blanket for her (no photos yet) then made a BSJ with the scraps.
And, then there’s the trip planning. Both a short trip in the near term and our big European trip in the fall. Almost every day, Matt has some new question or fact related to that trip to distract me with. Plus promises of finding the jewelry shop in Venice where he got my engagement ring.
Finally, reminders that graduation isn’t that far off. Just over two months away. I have the announcements and the cap and gown to prove it.
I may not feel like myself yet, but I know that this “almost” should turn into “completely” very soon.
* Sore jaw due to four dentist appointments in 10 days which helped diagnose and treat what had been a multi-year problem with a single tooth. After a round of anti-biotics and a root canal, all is pretty much normal.